Be Good

after observing where the world is at i have come to one conclusion about changing the world....its impossible and in this impossibility i cant hell but see impossible as I'm possible ...instead of changing other to value the little in life that  i see fit to be valued it is best i teach myself to be the good in the world
I'm no Malcolm x but i can attempt to follow teachings of Dr rev Marin Luther,Nelson Mandela as a South African its fitting right?

 but the truth is I can never!

imma be me ,its all I was designed to be and excel at ,no one can be a better me or a close enough me and I have these few years to discover my potential and purpose and part of it its to find and see good in everyone,every man alive is redeemable although some require Christ's intervention but we are all redeemable.

Conclusion :Help everyone its all we are here for,Millions don't mean anything when you are alone surrounded by four square walls but charity goes a long way!

Alone vs loneliness

Spent time away from all commotion and unnecessary occupations to get my thought in oder because I needed to be alone,  being a social butterfly it was hard for me to take a breather and be. ...... alone, couldn't push those I love to have this cold breeze my mind is lusting for but I could be absent in their chaos to have an affair with silence. Finally succeeded in eluding all crowds to found What they named "peace of mind and solitude " .

Time passed relationships dried of I cared a bit less,  well not enough to get me fighting with all in have to make them  survive anyway, because deep down I was seduced by something similar to what I was holding on to. but it was more mysterious,  cold,  darker than summer and filled with the most colourful spectrum silence could offer,  slowly and willingly my music changed,  my thoughts became deep, my sense was different from the world,  darkness felf safer and pain seemed to have pleasure, I became misunderstood, unable to convey depth to a happy world that started to seem like it was shallow and pointless.

Then people started speaking of words like love, happiness, missing and needing affection and when I looked at two people holding hand I longed for it too but didn't have the energy to play Russian roulette with my heart . will she get me,  will she love me, will we work out arghhhhh!!!!!! Tooo many semantics and dynamics have become the essence of this and in can't handle it so I go home to my square four walls  and make a few calls.,.,.,. The calls are cold now, I am finally alone now!

Fuck I'm lonely!  

Ponder dis!

On the brink of a melt down after being almost excluded in another institution again for poor performance, I read this and found a little courage "

“Don’t wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect.

There will always be challenges, obstacles and less than perfect conditions.

So what. Get started now. With each step you take, you will grow stronger and stronger,

more and more skilled, more and more self-confident and more and more successful.”

  Mark Victor Hansen
  " ,its never too late nor too soon to enlarger your territory or to just merely to hold on hope........at least that's what we tell our selves but after reading Andy Stanley's Principle of the path I learned that we choose directions with long term failures and hope God sort of auto corrects our path ,but the truth of the matter is that every path has a destination and we choose where we go.

we might not  have the power to choose where we start but we certainly do have the will ,power and the creative strength to alter our path thus resulting in an altered destination. Isn't it funny how in every mess we can sort of trace our fault and the decision we took when all of the earth warned or hinted to us, but our pursuit of happiness sort of numbs or blinds us to the danger we run to fully committed to a path that feels good but ends horribly. Take booze and sex for instance ,they feel good and certainly nice to indulge without reproach lol but when something backfires which is not always but when it does we are quick to blame God.

regrets are a bad decision's side effect......some permanent and some temporary.

don't choose happiness but choose the right decision unless you a born maverick !